Be Nice Now!

After my rant-filled post last week, and some very kind comments, I decided I just needed a break. A break from myself and my negative Nelly thoughts. This weekend I treated myself to a big Primark shop (I literally bought a whole new wardrobe!) and I arranged to meet a friend I'd not seen for a while in town for some lunch, drinks and a laugh. Just the kind of weekend I needed :)

So now, I need to come at things differently. Fed up days are always going to occur, but I cannot allow myself to feel that pent up about things when I don't exercise. I have to regain some positive momentum and get into a routine.

I haven't worked it all out and I don't have all the answers for myself but I am definitely feeling much better now. I'm going to re-read my PMA Week posts and see what I can learn from myself (I do talk sense sometimes!)

It's Just Never Ending Isn't It?

[Warning: simmering mood. Rant possible. Capitalisation likely]

So today, I was stressed, bored, fed up, happy, then fed up again, knackered...and for all of those feelings I looked for something to eat. I haven't eaten a huge amount and for the most part it has been on the right side of healthy (or just 'not shit' to put it bluntly) but I know I've just eaten things for the sake of it. And now I'm annoyed with myself.

I'm annoyed that I haven't felt like exercising all week and because of that I have felt shit about myself and along with HATING work and feeling a bit lost at what to do, I just don't feel good...and because I don't feel good I think 'screw it!' and I don't feel like exercising - can you see the cyclical pattern?

I am SO sick of being overweight. I'm sick of making bad choices (or even worse, no choices and just idling along in life like a fat robot). I'm SOOO sick of reading about other peoples life-changing weight loss (particularly in Weight Watchers magazine - which I no longer buy) where they lost 120 stone in 5 months SIMPLY by cutting out the 4 blocks of lard they ate for breakfast and taking the stairs at work rather than the lift. I have to work so hard for every friggin' pound I lose (which, by the way I haven't lost one of those for quite some time). When I was going to the gym EVERY morning before work and sticking to my points, RELIGIOUSLY tracking, my biggest loss was still only 3lb (only? I'd kill for a 3lb loss now!!!!)

So yeah, I'm being mardy, but I just have to let this feeling out because it's being eating me up for a couple of weeks now.

Consistency is the key. So all I need to do is exercise most days and stop eating when I'm stressed/bored. Easy peasy innit?!

I think I'm going to have an early night. I'm going to do some Zumba tomorrow to get the consistency-ball rolling and hopefully shake off this de-motivated fug I'm currently in.

Bon nuit!

Wimbledon Yumminess

I'm not talking abou strawberries and cream but rather the two men's finalists. I usually decide who I want to win by who is better looking (SHALOW MUCH) but I can't pick this one...

 Rafa?

 Nole?

Can't decide!

Stylish Blog Award

I haven't looked at my blog for a week so had a nice surprise that Victoria Lupton at Losing It had passed on the Stylish Blogger Award to me - thanks Victoria!

Firstly, I have to tell you all seven things about myself, so here we go:

1. I'm an introverted extrovert so if I can get your attention I will literally do anything to make you laugh.
2. I love music more than anything - going to live gigs being the pinnacle of enjoying it.
3. I'm GUTTED beyond belief that I'm not going to V Festival this year (see point above).
4. I've lost 3 stone in the past 18 months...
5. ...but have maintained a plateau for about 3-4 months (annoying).
6. I'm currently watching Wimbledon - big Rafa tennis fan :)
7. This blog has been instrumental in helping me make this attempt at weight loss a success. Thank you to everyone who has posted a comment when I've needed a bit of a boost!

Now I have to pass this award onto five of my most favourite blogs (apologies if you have already received this from someone else - just shows how much you are loved!):

Miss Frangipani @ When I Grow up, I'm going to be a Pin Up Girl! Now, here is a truly stylish blog! Gorgeous.

Jem @ Electra - It's not only about the finish line I honestly identify with her so much that some posts sound like me talking to myself (Note: I think the blog can now be found here: http://itsnotonlyaboutthefinishline.wordpress.com/)

Linz @ http://linzerello.blogspot.com/ Totally honest and really funny. One of the first blogs I check every week.

Paul @ http://fat4now.blogspot.com/ (I know Victoria has already passed this onto you) but I couldn't NOT give you a nod! Thanks for the comments and hope you had a nice hol!

I actually can't pick a fifth - my choice would have definitely been Victoria's blog but she's already had it, so I'll give her a honorary mention :)